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Dear Wadada
03:31
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Dear Wadada,
I hope you re doing fine.
I m writing you to ask you a question..
I ve been thinking these questions over and over,
while walking in the mountains
once more with just a small gas lighter,
dry soup, an union from my fathers garden,
my wife and your book.
thinking over matters of ethics and aesthetics,
of freedom and responsibility
for the sounds we make (and made in history);
feeling to be be part of something larger,
proving nothing, just adding to that whole,
and do so with respect,
thinking what you call Black Creative Music.
(and secretly calling it " a slight Wadada"
when i let my feet chose their way and the stones
to trust, step on and leave again,
improvising my way down steep slopes,
enjoying the ride,
the way the melodies sound in my head.)
and i know and i feel that i don t have to be black
to be part of this,
if i only know who i am and where i find my place:
:sometimes stepping back, sometimes aiming forward.
sometimes being loud, sometimes shutting up or playing silent.
i know i can be young or old, man or women,
roma or gadjo,
a tree or a stone,
bird or fish,
strange and from far out; i can be in.
the here and now.
(thank you rhythm,
thank you sincerely wadada,
h)
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2. |
Luetzi
13:42
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Here I stand,
feet sucked in yellow slush, I watch
in silent admiration
the helicopter hanging motionless above this
heartbreaking scene.
Small groups of humans
try to find their separate ways
over the fields,
surrounding this enormous hole,
where the giant, lame machine seems small,
but it's servants so much smaller.
They stray
over the fields
and under the mills,
through the last remaining village,
towards the chain
of the scared and just as lost
soldiers of the capital,
who were urged to leave their vehicles,
that slowly sink,
lined up in the mud,
missing mirrors,
but decorated by protesters with hearts.
They form the chain
to keep us from reaching
the last barn, next to the last tree, in the last village,
where Pinky and Brain went underground.
And I am somehow drawn in that direction, too
in my '98 parka
over the field of young and optimistic spinach, dying.
And I think to myself
What a Wonderful World...
A voice in the wind tries to tell me something
about gender, color, colonialisme
and all i can think is,
you r right
and i am sorry
The mess
we made of it all,
the last two-hundred years,
and me, since '98...
(and I am glad that I am not alone, here
as I was never alone in all those times;
and she is somewhere out here, too,
closer to the village then to me,
please, wiil you take care?)
I am aware,
of the fact that I drive a diesel car,
that the house of our foundation uses fossile fuel,
and that the money flows to Putin...
But our guests, who fled the war, need to be warm as well!
And when I use my car for work, it's for the good cause?
No, my mistake is more about
that for too long I trusted
in the thought:
this system is not ours.
we work in parallel society,
we are the DiY.
But somehow now it seems
this parallel does not exist;
the last pandemic showed us
where all crawling in the same pit.
I reclaim the words you ve stolen:
love and content and something to hold on to.
But you can keep your ideas of togetherness and inclusion
as long as you want to use them only in your narrative
and on your spot,
as long as you want to be many,
as long as you want to be safe,
as long as you want to be there where you are,
And we will work on regress...
when all you hear
is a restrung string, metal on wood,
stone or skin
my yak shawl over my atrophied leg,
i m knitting my lyrics
and play in the pit
that we heat up with our own carbon emission only.
breathing and farting, out of time.
someone stirs with a plastic spoon in a Tupperware full of synthetics.
His sporty shoulders, well trained thumbs, micro-motorics of a frozen rabbit on a highly lit memory,
of what we used to call a highway.
we all have small footprints but double shadows,
extra large
"We are, I am, you are
by cowardice or courage
the one who find our way
back to this scene
carrying a knife, a camera
a book of myths
in which
our names do not appear"
(from:
Adrienne rich: Diving into the Wreck)
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3. |
Mijn Telemachus
02:19
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By Joseph Brodsky
Translated by Joseph Brodsky
My dear Telemachus,
The Trojan War
is over now; I don't recall who won it.
The Greeks, no doubt, for only they would leave
so many dead so far from their own homeland.
But still, my homeward way has proved too long.
While we were wasting time there, old Poseidon,
it almost seems, stretched and extended space.
I don't know where I am or what this place
can be. It would appear some filthy island,
with bushes, buildings, and great grunting pigs.
A garden choked with weeds; some queen or other.
Grass and huge stones . . . Telemachus, my son!
To a wanderer the faces of all islands
resemble one another. And the mind
trips, numbering waves; eyes, sore from sea horizons,
run; and the flesh of water stuffs the ears.
I can't remember how the war came out;
even how old you are--I can't remember.
Grow up, then, my Telemachus, grow strong.
Only the gods know if we'll see each other
again. You've long since ceased to be that babe
before whom I reined in the plowing bullocks.
Had it not been for Palamedes' trick
we two would still be living in one household.
But maybe he was right; away from me
you are quite safe from all Oedipal passions,
and your dreams, my Telemachus, are blameless.
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4. |
Sjarmanjka Italianka
01:00
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for eric dolphy
(with ruggero and bas)
black and white
the still born calf
wet skinned still
but yet to breath
wrestling column
slandered
left untouched
will find no shelter
but in sound
pain
paints black
the backside of the eyelids
of all colors
in all colors
of the
sun
fool, that
never hurt no one:
on roofs edges skinny comfort lies
and that is why
the magpie s
on the hanger
like a would-be gypsie.
brothers,
never lose hope!
the tv s on
the wheels lose grip
we are sung loose
there s always sugar shortage
or too much
he died lonely on an airport
sea turtles-friends,
the water somewhat colder under the bridge
souls remember rhythm
hands remember time
fingers a memory
scales a neck
or a flute
never
repeat
as you go on
into spring,
and into the provinces
where so much love
is still
unborn
ma
we 've got eight wires
of scrap metal
kept carefully in mud
just around the river bend
i whisper
that i miss you
i feel it in my stomach, ma
we 've got 10 wires of nonprecious metal
kept carefully in mud
here, just around the corner
of the danube, mississippi.
the black sea,
hudson bay,
the smiling coast of africa
on entering these virgin lands
on virgin soil
we are older now
then you would ever be
our youngest is the darkest
and still wither than my bones
ma,
we ve got eight metal wires
of non-precious metal
kept in mud
i miss you
i feel it in my stomach, ma...
this is why the geese spit on my crucifixion
and why the cycle is too short
no games, nor dances,
he dies alone in a hotel
no milk
but beautiful brown eyes.
injured,
never damaged
injured
never damaged
gronn.bonn.lageland. beginning of july 2022
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6. |
Orfeo Cursing (the gods)
04:06
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deus ex machina defunct.
orfeo cursing (the gods)
the sadness of the story about the man coming down from god’s mountain to make himself smaller and thus being able to fetch his girl back from the depths of sorrow, just to lose her again, for he turned around once and so failed in the eyes of the gods, that cowardly hide, behind high clouds, too scared for their power to change a man’s fate, coming down from their mountains. sick and silly gods; try living yourself.
the blunt sadness of the story about the man coming down from the mountain to make himself smaller and so to be able to fetch his girl back from the depths of sorrow, just to lose her again, because of turrning around once, checking and thus failing in the eyes of the gods that cowardly hide high behind their clouds for they are too scared for their power to change the fate of a man that comes down from their mountain
fuck yourselves, you don't have the guts to to hell and back.
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7. |
Ciao, Bela Sova, Ciao...
04:30
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ciao Belasova, ciao
playing under the roof
where you live and pray
two little brothers
Yet Unwise
and Still Unwise
decide to only
wave and bow
respectfully
for you
and innocent
white owls
the future
pretty girl,
is as uncertain as it ever was.
for wisdom and patience, your middle names,
appearing in interwoven intervals
of off-white elegance
before a dark brown background,
this cold and nightly northern town
in silence and respectfully
we -but not too solemnly-
pledge,
to never stop
making our sounds
to how you dance
this comforting circling
between suspected poles of trust and curiosity
as if saying goodbye
but praying us: hold on!
which goes for one man driving home
and one man leaving his,
you might as well
be good.
Belasova,
ciao,
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